Friday, August 31, 2012

Currie's Gratitude 31 August 2012

BElong Ó 2012 Currie Silver

Where is that place where BElonging lives?
How DO I get there
From here?
Right Now?

Choosing BElong wasn’t easy. It’s a feeling I’ve felt too infrequently to BE able to write about without a certain level of ickiness attached. And then there is the part where I have sought to erect massive walls so another or others wouldn’t BElong. Definitely a sticky word.

Still, I am grateful for digging deeper into this word. It is always enlightening to find out where the dictionary spends most of its word-load. In BElong’s case it is:

An intransitive verb. BE property of somebody or something; BE linked to somebody or something; BE classified as part of something; BE a component; BE in right place [having a right place?!]; BE accepted somewhere… [capitalisation mine ;~D]

Okay.. So is that how I define it? Or isn’t my definition more of what is NOT BElonging?!

Funny how that happens. Despite learning how a word is defined, I can still define it for myself and pay little to NO attention to what those learned folks at Encarta, in this case, say BElong means.

One thing I DO know is that BElonging when I am inside looking out at who does NOT is really much worse than outside-looking-in…

I love you, Currie

Thursday, August 30, 2012

Currie's Gratitude 30 August 2012

BEyond Ó 2012 Currie Silver

The places I’ve gone
Anywhere I had imagined
Weren’t merely wondrous…
They were impossible to
Contain in these words I know.

This Journey into the possibilities of Plan BE… BEyond words. I don’t for one minute imagine this would BE true for anyone else. I only celebrate its JOY for me.

These remaining days of August, I have debated and ultimately decided that I would examine closely some of the BE-BEginning words I use, love, and would like to illustrate. Which brings me to ~

It both was and was NOT an enlightening journey into the Encarta Dictionary. Initially the only use of this delicious word was as a preposition or even a “prepositionadverb” [NOT to put too fine a point on the realisation that Encarta might also make up words ;~D]…

Then, down at about 6 & 7 in the definitions was how I most often use and definitely think of this word. As a noun. As someplace or somewhere that is both known and “BEyond” knowing.

What I love about this word, BEyond, is how it feels, what it evokes when I read, write, or speak it. MayBE I am unforgivably odd, yet I DO love words. Especially those words that have the power to make my thoughtsandfeelings dance.

I love you, Currie

Wednesday, August 29, 2012

Currie's Gratitude 29 August 2012

BElieve Ó 2012 Currie Silver

Know that you know
Trust what you trust
Don’t explain
Never defend

It’s a whole big World out there, and sometimes we all have our doubts, fears, and worried wonderings about, well, about whatever we doubt, fear, and worriedly wonder. And there are times when what I BElieve and You BElieve can BE completely opposed. Yet with all the doubt, the fear, the worried wonderings, and opposing BElief, we are connected at our core.

What your BElief is, and what his or hers or their or even my BElief is is only flavour, colour, preference. Essentially we all BElieve.

This can BE an especially hard bit to wrap our heads around. It seems almost to BE a MUST that we argue for [and against] BEliefs. We try to get others to see where their BElief is “wrong” BEcause it is NOT ours. We resist the same lobbying when we are the one BElieving differently. It is a little bit insane I think.

I don’t know for certain that we are all wired to BElieve in something, BE it an idea, a principle, or a doctrine, but I DO know that we all BElieve. And that is what makes this whole big World whole and big. There is room for us all…

I love you, Currie

Tuesday, August 28, 2012

Currie's Gratitude 28 August 2012

BEautimous Ó 2012 Currie Silver

One part luminous
Another part fabulous
Mix in generous
And Wondrous
And you’ll BE
On your way to

Even when I try to pin down a definition for this word, well, WORDS themselves fail me. Perhaps this is why I am prone to make up words that work and sing to me.

BEautimous is a simple song of praise.

BEautimous is a huge toothy smile carried via email.

BEautimous is a warm hug for someone too far away to reach otherwise.

BEautimous is a word that when seen or heard for the first time is understood, in any language. Rather remarkable, eh?!

Although BEautiful is a fine word, BEautimous goes far BEyond the scope of BEing BEautiful. BEautiful mostly speaks of how a thing or person looks, and usually people, though I have heard [and have even used] it used to describe many other “things” such as landscapes, lit-up trees, and even sunsets.

BEauty is only one tiny piece of BEautimous. And, while an essential piece, it is far too narrow and confining a word to REALLY mean what BEautimous is. I think this is perhaps the origin of the word in the first place. Something that could reach BEyond the little box which defines BEauty or calls a thing BEautiful.

I love you, Currie

Monday, August 27, 2012

Currie's Gratitude 27 August 2012

BEgin Ó2012 Currie Silver


BEgin is one of my favourite words. One where I nearly always capitalise B and E. Boldly.

After 26 days of Plan BE writings, I have 5 days of August left to fill. It dawned on me that I could DO this with my favourite words that BEgin with BE.

Why Plan BE?!

Plan BE BEgan with BE Brilliant. Everything has someplace it BEgins. Thus this word: BEgin. A natural addition to the month of Plan BE writing and art-making.

BEgin is fresh. It’s new. It’s filled and overflowing with possibility. Like Plan BE.

Plan BE was to BEcome an e-course. Whether one I’d teach and share, or simply something I’d complete on my own, as I often DO…

In the BEginning, Plan BE  was intentionally focusing on BEing: Authentic. Brilliant. Curious… Zen.

Plan BE has always reminded me of when I was teaching K-4. At the BEginning of the year our time was spent creating the “community” of our classroom. Acknowledging and understanding how each of us saw and understood the various influences we had on one another and the group as a whole.

Now, Plan BE is a collection of essays, poeming, and art… It is a seed I have planted. It is growing.



I love you, Currie

Sunday, August 26, 2012

Currie's Gratitude 26 August 2012

BE Imaginative Ó2012 Currie Silver

Think BEyond what you know
Reach deeper
Dare boldly
Leap trusting
There will BE somewhere
Or your wings will let you

Imagination is one of the greatest gifts we get in our Life. MayBE, too, it is our most essential skill.

Imagine for a moment that…

How often DO you lean in closer, listen closely, and joyously anticipate what comes next?!

While BEing Imaginative, having fresh ideas, and seeing what is NOT [yet] are key ingredients for a healthy Life, there is another path I think I have overlooked all too often.

When I am feeling stuck and bogged-down by something, I think I can DO nothing more than BE there until I am NOT, anymore. I accept this is what is so and acceptance is a grand skill, posture, and attitude to encourage.

However, when I put BEing Imaginative into the equation, when I dare look BEyond this predicament and situation, something extraordinary happens. Every. Single. Time.

Imagination is like electricity. It can run lights and it can seem to make things come alive. It allows connections that once weren’t even considered, much less considered possible. To BE Imaginative, in the spirit of Plan BE, means to BE like a fish who can live in or out of water…


I love you, Currie

Saturday, August 25, 2012

Currie's Gratitude 25 August 2012

BE Zen Ó2012 Currie Silver

To BE Zen
Is to BE in a sort of eternal paradox
And to live there peaceably,
Neither content nor discontent
Capable of lovingkindness with what is and is NOT.

Plan BE is so much more and less and different and the same as I’d imagined when first I dreamt up the idea. It’s funny how I DO this, make up these little projects and assignments for myself.

In so many ways that is MY BEing Zen. To continually search, within and without. To BE Curious and Have Adventures while exploring the depth and breadth of my paradoxical self.

Making my Life over for Now, for Me on my own Journey rather than one shared, I have uncovered a peacefulness within me that never dared pop out from the shadows. Often I think of these words from Landslide, by Stevie Nicks:

Oh, mirror in the sky
What is love?
Can the child within my heart rise above?
Can I sail through the changing ocean tides?
Can I handle the seasons of my life?

Well, I've been afraid of changing
'Cause I've built my life around you
But time makes you bolder
Even children get older
And I'm getting older, too

Yet it isn’t always a question that gets answered… How very Zen, eh?!

I love you, Currie

Friday, August 24, 2012

Currie's Gratitude 24 August 2012

BE Encouraging Ó2012 Currie Silver 

It doesn’t take much
Only a moment
A gesture
An attitude
That’s all Encouragement asks…

I was, still AM, quite moved by a line from Hello! Dolly about money BEing likened to manure, and that the purpose of money is to “spread it around, encouraging young things to grow.” I love the idea I’ve been calling Encouraging Young Things To Grow. I even purchased it as a domain name Of course that’s about as far as I got, other thank a fair bit of daydreaming, visualising, and attitude.

It is such a simple thing, really, to BE Encouraging. Yet I’ve often NOT been, have even chosen a discouraging tone and attitude. Why?! BEcause I have been afraid that if I encourage another it will mean less for me, or mayBE even none at all.

While I didn’t see much of these Summer Olympics, only snippets of highlights and some of those barely highlights of highlights, one thing struck me over and over. How the teams, though performing individually, seemed to have it built into their “routine” to hug one another after a performance.

I am grateful that of the little bits I was able to see, my brain was focused upon that. Noticed it. Thought about it. And gave it great consideration…

I love you, Currie

Thursday, August 23, 2012

Currie's Gratitude 23 August 2012

 BE Authentic Ó2012 Currie Silver

Really, the REAL you [and me]
Original, unrepeatable, unlike anyone else
Is all we could ever Hope to BE

Authenticity is a remarkable thing. Sometimes, when we get right down to the is-ness of it all, we suddenly recognise that it is easier to BE Authentic than to BE any of the myriad ways and whos we’re busy trying to BE.

Odd, isn’t it?! We spend so much of our Life trying to achieve this thing, get to that point, reach our goals, and, especially when we are very young, get older [yet NOT so much grow up] that it is a shock to the system when we come to the place of truly understanding Authenticity… Ours.

For me, I have been learning who I really am, the Authentic Currie, only in the past few years. [way too late, yet better than never reaching out for it at all]

I am grateful I CAN BE and even embrace BEing Who and What and How and Where and even Why I am. I can’t really know WHEN I am, yet if I am authentically and completely ME, the WHEN doesn’t really matter anymore.

Trying to find my fit, my place wasn’t Authentic. BEcoming and daring to BE ME is the Journey of my Life.

I love you, Currie

Wednesday, August 22, 2012

Currie's Gratitude 22 August 2012

BE Brilliant Ó2012 Currie Silver

BEing Brilliant isn’t really that hard. MayBE I’m wrong, but really, I don’t think it’s quite such the challenge I often turn it into. BEing Brilliant simply means that I [or you or anyone I suppose] find out what lights me [or you or anyone I suppose] up and makes my [or your or anyone’s I suppose] spirit soar and then DO THAT.

BEing Brilliant is daring to walk in the pouring down rain, through puddles, letting yourself absorb the rain and all of its juiciness.

BEing Brilliant is leaping and taking the risk that this might all fall apart or blow up in your face.

BEing Brilliant is reaching out and helping someone who doesn’t know how to ask for help. [or doesn’t want to appear needy]

BEing Brilliant is letting someone help, mayBE just BEcause sometimes it’s far sweeter for two than just one.

BEing Brilliant is imagining what it is you most want in all the World and then boldly saying so. [even if someone or several of them laugh in your sweet little face]

BEing Brilliant is how things went from how they were to how they are. [and if that’s NOT working for you, it’s okay for you to turn it back round…]

I love you, Currie

Tuesday, August 21, 2012

Currie's Gratitude 21 August 2012

BE Magical Ó2012 Currie Silver

BE dreamlike
Like a faerie
Then gone
Leaving BEhind
What is truly YOU

I’ve long thought that Life itself is the greatest magic. However it all comes into BEing, no matter what one’s BEliefs about Life, has to BE Magical.

How is it that I can daily BEgin here, in the dark of the last slivers of nighttime, allowing my thoughtsandfeelings to tumble out of my brain through my fingertips without even having a clue what it is I am going to say???

How is it then that it will find its way to YOU, whenever it DOES, and if you read it, HOW, I ask again, is that NOT Magical?!

There are some in my Life & World who think ME too solitary, and so I may BE by their standards, yet for ME, by MINE, I am rich in loving friendships, deeply and truly connected, and blessed extraordinarily by this simple daily practise. I can never really know who reads me or when or how these words on my screen meet their eyes, I can only know that I send them out there, on BEyond where I sit, where I write, where I magically find words to share…

It is nothing short of MAGICAL how this process happens… YES?!??

I love you, Currie

Monday, August 20, 2012

Currie's Gratitude 20 August 2012

BE Wonder-FULL Ó2012 Currie Silver

BE open to Wonder
Letting it pour into you
So it can fill you
Full and overflowing

Wonder is a far more complex word than I’ve given it credit for. Sure, I use it in its myriad ways and forms. And I could probably come up with at least 5 synonyms. Still, taking the time this morning to actually look it up and take stock of all its possible interpretations according to Encarta Dictionary: English (North America) I found out some things I didn’t already know.

For instance that the first definition of the noun, Wonder, is Amazed Admiration. What a tasty mouthful, eh?!

And the adjective, Wonder, is defined as Extraordinarily Good. [how often DO YOU hear those two words walking hand-in-hand and side-by-side?!]

As far as my intentions for Plan BE, I am nearly turned inside out and upside down 20 BE’s into it. It started out as a course, well, that at least was my intention a year ago, when I first dreamt it up. Now I think it much more of a Living Thing. A shared and collected sort of thing.

I am grateful I don’t NEED TO KNOW or even HAVE the correct container for Plan BE. I can simply allow it to dance round about me. 


I love you, Currie

Sunday, August 19, 2012

Currie's Gratitude 19 August 2012

BE Visible Ó2012 Currie Silver

Dare yourself to BE seen
Come out from the shadows
Sing out loud
Dance in the rain

Visible is one of those words I thought I understood until A] I lived with it as my word-of-the-year in 2011; and B] I looked it up and really considered its definitions more closely.

BEing Visible, I must admit, still manages to elude me. Ever since I was a little girl I have BElieved that if I hide you won’t see me. If I close MY eyes I’ll BE invisible. If I don’t speak up I won’t BE heard. [which, I have discovered, also assures me that no one will listen]

How DO I get seen, noticed, and have attention paid to me?! What is the magic key that unlocks that box?!

And, HOW is it that I want to BEcome Visible??!!

I am grateful for the time and energy I have spent trying to understand the concept of BEing Visible. For how easily I can see my ways of staying or BEcoming Invisible. And most of all for finding a few paths through the Forest of Visibility.

I am grateful for the nuances of BEcoming and allowing myself Visibility. For those ways I have stretched and built my strength and capacity for BEcoming positively Visible.

I love you, Currie

Saturday, August 18, 2012

Currie's Gratitude 18 August 2012

 BE Unconditional Ó2012 Currie Silver

Relax your brain
Loosen your grip
Allow your feelings.
BEing Unconditional
That simple.

I’m BEcoming more of an unconditional sort of person. I don’t know what specifically is encouraging this, but I DO know that Life, mine anyway, is far better lived without all the stuffiness and pinch of conditions. Still, it’s a difficult path to walk. “Everyone else is/does…” is often the louder voice that pulls me into a sort of complacent puddle of BEing. Still, I am learning to lean toward unconditionality.

As someone who grew up around people with strong opinions they weren’t ever afraid to express, I was NOT encouraged to Think For Myself. Any of my veering this way or that was challenged and required me to explain and defend myself. I never liked DOing that, something I Now understand and have deep tenderness toward my younger self about, but it DID INDEED mark me for Life.

For me, BEing Unconditional is a gentler path, one I am finding deep Gratitude for having chosen, even if I was late coming to it. BEing Unconditional allows love to flow in and out more easily. I don’t need to let differences stand in its Light, nor DO I need to let similarities try to contain me ever again.

I love you, Currie

Friday, August 17, 2012

Currie's Gratitude 17 August 2012

BE Yourself Ó2012 Currie Silver 

BE Yourself
You’re the only one

As I go along through this mining of Plan BE, I am constantly struck by the choices of things I made. But it probably took very little to choose of the Y-words, Yourself. Of course, I may BE thinking more about good and bad, judging, and deflecting. It happens.

Lately, BEing MYself has been a little exhausting and even overwhelming, at times. I’ve caught myself comparing, contrasting, and worst of all, ASSUMING. And the worst thing about DOing these things is that I don’t get a reality check. The thoughtsandfeelings just pop up and then stay, like facts.

I have ALWAYS loved learning. I suppose that I always WILL. However… what I haven’t loved is grading, judging, and comparison. I think that nothing kills the Spirit in a person the way that trifecta can.

I am grateful for the awareness of what happens in me, how my brain works. What is challenging me is stepping away and having the proper perspective. As much as I want to BE and AM myself, sometimes, perspective on that someone is missing. Only in stepping away, or back, can I see clearly.

There is nothing unique about this, I am certain. I think it’s just the Human Condition…

I love you, Currie

Thursday, August 16, 2012

Currie's Gratitude 16 August 2012

BE Disciplined Ó2012 Currie Silver

Make [take] the Time
Who and How
You want to BE
Or BEcome.
DO this consistently
That’s Discipline plain and simple…

In a departure from my norm, I’m sharing this photograph I managed to complete yesterday. I am learning, finally, to use Photoshop Elements through taking an e-Course from Kim Klassen called Skinny-Mini. I received PSE8 as a gift Christmas 2009!!

I discovered that I have some learning distractions. [I think that’s a more accurate word than disabilities] This isn’t the first time I’ve come nose-to-nose with them either. In both my psych and work/vocation evaluations with Vocational Rehabilitation, these showed themselves loud/proud and clear.

I am grateful to BE aware of these challenges/distractions BEcause it was only through awareness and self-forgiveness that I was able to complete this particular lesson.

Discipline is my word-of-the-year 2012. It has been gentle and it also regularly kicks me to step up and out BEyond what is comfortable and easy. To embrace my flaws and shortcomings and forgive FIRST and Frequently. To DO what is My Best [for Right Now] without apology or excuses.

BEing Disciplined is simple, although I have mastered complicating it. It is nothing more than consistently showing up and DOing what I said I would. YES!! Just showing up. ALWAYS.

I love you, Currie

Wednesday, August 15, 2012

Currie's Gratitude 15 August 2012

BE Curious Ó2012 Currie Silver

BE Curious and Life can
Always and forever
Amaze you
Surprise you
And make your heart smile.

I am Curiosity’s biggest fan. Or at least I am one of its biggest fans. I seem always to want to learn and find out and see What Happens If… I never EVER get bored, even when I am standing at the bus stop, my wee cart loaded with groceries, and no tunes or book to listen to. I observe and watch and listen and oh the things I see!!! Hear!!! Notice!!! Discover!!!

Yesterday as I returned from that very same scenario I was greeted by 3 little smiling faces. The 3 kids in the front house had just come home from their swimming lesson, and they practically did somersaults greeting me home. That just makes my day. Now I understand how Gracie feels when she sees a friend or makes a new one on our Adventures. [although I will say I don’t go down and roll belly up for anyone!!!]

Some people, and I can say, YES!! I have been one at times, find kids and their chatter and questions tiresome. Hurry-Hurry-Get-This-Done-Mustn’t-BE-Late-Come-On!!! Yesterday I was treated to 3 long and lovely stories about NOT BEing afraid, learning to float, and more. Wouldn’t have missed it!!!

I love you, Currie

Tuesday, August 14, 2012

Currie's Gratitude 14 August 2012

BE Open Ó2012 Currie Silver

Listen, Look, Take Your Time
Each moment and every Now is new
Similar, mayBE, and connected
Yet utterly and completely NEW
BE Open to its possibilities and wonders.

Ever feel like you’ve “wasted” an hour, a day?! What happened? Did you really use it up without Purpose, Intention, or BEing Present?

Whether you answered in the affirmative or the negative, I’m guessing that were you to really sift through that “wasted” time you’d find something you didn’t see quite clearly, at first look.

I think this capacity of BEing Human is one of my favourites. When I am OPEN to possibility, when I know there is ALWAYS wonder, even the worst times, the most difficult experiences, and those things I simply NEVER EVER AGAIN want to think on are utterly transformed.

Amazing what OPENNESS can DO…

BEing Open hasn’t been something I’ve sought to BE, overall. In fact, for a Very [probably too] Long Time I just wanted to nail things down, set them straight, and get it “right.” However, over the past year I have started shedding old definitions, releasing what I KNEW TO BE TRUE, and letting myself BE surprised by Life. By Myself. By YOU. And by Them, yes, Them, too…

Openness makes the impossible laugh, lovingly. Gently. Easily. Deeply.

I love you, Currie

Monday, August 13, 2012

Currie's Gratitude 13 August 2012

BE Humble Ó2012 Currie Silver

Even if I need to look, to BE exposed
And vulnerable
To take the long way
I will BE Humble
I will allow Life to BE

I know my ideas around BEing Humble and having Humility spent a Very [Too] Long Time swirling about in me in confused chaos. I know that when I was young, but no longer a child, I could NOT stand to feel Humble BEcause, largely, I didn’t understand it then, as I have come to understand it over the past few decades. I hated to BE put in “my place” and to BE condescended to, especially by those who did this with a certain glee at their lot, to BE able to shame and openly disrespect me.

I know that I was NOT a very humble child, teenager, or young adult. In fact, I don’t think I really grasped the draw and power of Humility until I was well into my 50’s. I know that BEing Humble scared me. It seemed to BE a way to keep from BEing noticed and acknowledged. It seemed ridiculous.

But you know, NOW, with no hesitation whatsoever, I seek Humility and choose BEing Humble. I no longer need others’ approval, recognition, or permission. I embrace my capacity to simply BE Humble.

I love you, Currie

Sunday, August 12, 2012

Currie's Gratitude 12 August 2012

BE Remarkable Ó2012 Currie Silver

BEing a Remarkable person
It’s right within your reach
If only you will see
That you already ARE
Truly and deeply

What does Remarkable mean?! Does it mean fancy-shmancy with initials following your name? Is it awarded, earned, progressed toward in a certain way?!

Some, perhaps many MORE than just some, BElieve there is a WAY to BE a Remarkable person. I suppose they have a point, and I don’t mean to argue, yet more and more I am discovering that BEing Remarkable is actually very ordinary and everyday.

The moments of conversation, acknowledgement, and connection that can occur at a bus stop… are these less than REMARKABLE BEcause they are so ordinary?

The flash of insight when DOing something like washing dishes or brushing your teeth… aren’t these extraordinary, amazing, and, oh, REMARKABLE, too?

I BElieve in Remarkable People and I meet them, write with them in my heart and mind, and am filled full and overflowing with Gratitude for them. Each. And. Every. Day. Of. My. Ordinary. Life…

I BElieve that each of us is Remarkable, same as we are unrepeatable, unique, and quite extraordinarily suited to BEing Who We Are.

I BElieve that the most seemingly dull and ordinary are truly the most Remarkable ever imaginable.

I love you, Currie

Saturday, August 11, 2012

Currie's Gratitude 11 August 2012

BE Focused Ó2012 Currie Silver

SEE it, whatever it is YOU want
See it with the same clarity
Hindsight offers
And let nothing
And no ONE
Dissuade you

BEing Focused has some connotations that are NOT so positive. Like BEing compulsive and obsessive, holding on for dear Life when the wiser thing is to Let Go, and living in significant denial despite things BEing crystal clear. And I admit, those are sorts and types of Focus I’ve held, and likely will hold to again. [and again…]

On NOT the but an OTHER hand, BEing Focused has been the singular most essential piece to every single good thing that I have ever managed to attain in Life. BEing able to SEE what it is, to truly envision it, and to continuously and definitively move toward it, even when standing still, BEing FOCUSED has been my “golden” key.

And I don’t think for one second it’s NOT the same for others, though I really don’t KNOW how it plays anywhere but HERE, in ME and My Life.

At many times, oh, so too many I am sad to say, BEing Focused has also led me far afield and off on tangents. These are examples of focus-gone-bad, yet even those experiences have been hugely beneficial and of significant and great value…

I love you, Currie

Friday, August 10, 2012

Currie's Gratitude 10 August 2012

BE Simple Ó2012 Currie Silver

BE Simple BEcause you CAN BE
BEcause it may seem complicated
Yet it’s NOT
BE Simple BEcause Life is short
And Simple travels light

I’ve long wished to BE a simpler version of myself. And I have blamed people, places, things, and circumstances for NOT BEing able to BE Simple, or even simpler. NOT a good plan… [in case you were wondering]

In the past 4 months I have discovered a Simpler Currie who is fully formed and ready to roll. Letting Go of my 4-wheeled transportation has, practically in one stroke, carved out a simpler way of BEing that really couldn’t BE easier to incorporate.

One thing that really made me complicated was my openness to other interpretations. Or mayBE it was my unwillingness to commit. Call it what I will, I am Now living and BEing Simpler than I could ever have imagined DOing and BEing.

When I have confusion Now, I am quicker to resolve it. Oftentimes it requires nothing more complicated than saying “NO.” And this is, by the way, NO to myself. Turns out I was the complicated stick-in-the-mud all along!!!

And I have learned to ask for help, though I still don’t like it all that much. But when I DO I show up clearer, more myself.

I love you, Currie

Thursday, August 9, 2012

Currie's Gratitude 9 August 2012

BE Nurturing Ó2012 Currie Silver

Take the time
Make it
To BE someone who
Even inspires
Something [or someone]
To flourish

It was sort of strange in a familiar way to look up Nurturing and discover that in fact it means:

1) to encourage somebody or something to grow, develop, flourish, thrive, and be successful; 2)to give tender care and protection to a young child, animal, or plant, and helping it to grow and develop; 3)to keep a feeling in the mind for a long time, allowing it to grow or deepen.

Which is perhaps WHY, without knowing it, I chose Nurturing for Part 1 of Plan BE. BEcause Plan BE is all about How We BE & BEcome Who We Want To BE & BEcome.

As I often DO, I am coming at things from several directions at once, and often the fact that I AM is NOT something I am completely conscious of. [or even AT ALL]

BE Nurturing is more an attitude and intention than a task with specific steps to follow to thus BE it. It is how I like to look at the myriad opportunities a day presents me with.

Can I give someone encouragement?
Can I BE more tender and kind?
Can I feel more thus let feelings deepen in me?

I love you, Currie

Wednesday, August 8, 2012

Currie's Gratitude 8 August 2012

BE Trustworthy Ó2012 Currie Silver 

DO what you said you’d DO
Make it a priority
Keep your word
BE worthy of trusting.

When I set out to create Plan BE, I used a simple trick I’d learned works well for me to mine my birdbrain for insights and ideas. I used the alphabet. I know there are many good “T” words, yet the one that floated to the top for me THAT TIME was Trustworthy.

I am certain that there was [and is] a Very Good Reason for this word BEing part of Plan BE. Trustworthy means: dependable, reliable, responsible, truthful, honest, constant, honorable, upright,and faithful. At least those are the synonyms I found.

I have NOT always been Trustworthy. [oh surprise?!] I have been neither dependable nor constant. I haven’t been upright and I’ve surely been irresponsible. I’ve stretched and even fabricated the truth.

And yet…

One of the things I look for in others is Trustworthiness. And one of my strengths is Trustworthiness. I hadn’t really wrapped my head round all this until just Now, but I have also known it for a Very Long Time.

It is easy to promise, to say I will DO this or BElieve you when you say you will DO that. What’s NOT is when I [or you] don’t.

I love you, Currie

Tuesday, August 7, 2012

Currie's Gratitude 7 August 2012

BE Light Ó2012 Currie Silver

BE Light and your Life is a gentler Journey.
BE Light and trust things to come into BEing in their own way and time.
BE Light and give Life the space to bloom.
BE Light and take things as they come.
BE Light and loosen your grip on HOW.
BE Light and find the path that is there just for you.
BE Light and live with a heart that has wings.
BE Light and take a risk.
BE Light and then BE Lighter still.
BE Light and Learn how to Let Go.
BE Light and discover your Light.

Oh how VERY MANY times have I been told to “lighten up.”  MayBE this isn’t just an admonishment that I’ve received. Still, it feels a bit weird as I think on it this early morning. Sort of like grabbing a kid roughly and telling him or her to “play nice.”

It’s strange how often I recall that phrase BEing levelled at me in anger and loudly.

MayBE I am living too much in my head again…

I am grateful, actually, that I am able to look at this slice of My Life with some humour and grace. To see how much what I point out is exactly what I, too, have done, in my way…

I love you, Currie

Monday, August 6, 2012

Currie's Gratitude 6 August 2012

BE Quiet Ó2012 Currie Silver

BE Quiet
Lean into
The sounds
Of Life

It’s true that Today I consider myself a quiet person. I’m sure that anyone who knows me in-person and has spent time with me would roll their eyes and mayBE NOT hold back their laughter. And yet, just as age has had its way with refining ME, so, too, has living alone changed some of the fundamental aspects of Who/How I AM.

I’ve had quite a bit of worry and fretfulness lately. Sometimes, though I DO stand by what I write, I write too much. Awareness of this tendency has initiated the worrying and fretting.

I am always listening, but oftentimes it is what is BEing batted about in BEtween my ears that I am listening to. And too closely, too.

Even when I meditate, there is clatter nattering, and listening is difficult.

BEing a quieter person, Now, in this passage, I forget to remember that one person canNOT take in all that I have to say “out loud.” BEcause I am listening, really listening, to EVERYthing, I am finding that less said, less written, and less NEEDING to share what I am thinkingandfeeling is where I want to stand, tall and unafraid.

I am grateful I can look and see this so clearly.

I love you, Currie

Sunday, August 5, 2012

Currie's Gratitude 5 August 2012

BE Generous Ó2012 Currie Silver

Even when [you are sure] it doesn’t matter
Or seem to BE noticed
BE Generous.

I’ve been busy in my brain lately. I want something “more” that is actually “less” but I canNOT seem to find the way through the Maze of Incompletion that is my World at the moment. Many of my connections, despite my sincere and earnest intention to strengthen them, are frayed and feeling far BEyond my grasp.

Sometimes, when I wake especially early, like I did today, I think it’s so I can BE Still and Listen. And yet there seems only to BE noise and static, and the things I visualise turn into blurry pixel-ish images. There is a sort of form but nothing I can decipher completely.

I had so different a Life with those I love in mind when I moved East in 2009. I eventually Let Go of “making it happen,” forcing it to fit my frame. I learned to bend with the wind, to BE like the Willow tree I so admire. Yet here I find myself, far oftener than just once in a while, sure that I have been TOO Generous, too quick to accept less by calling it enough.

MayBE that isn’t even close to what BE Generous means. I don’t know…

I love you, Currie

Saturday, August 4, 2012

Currie's Gratitude 4 August 2012

BE Just The Way You Are Ó2012 Currie Silver 

BEcause nobody else
Can possibly BE it the way YOU can…

BEing just how I am has never been the most thrilling thing I can imagine BEing. In fact, it has some pretty huge cracks in it. [mayBE Leonard Cohen was on to something when he said that’s how the light gets in?!]

And yet there is another voice within me. The one who has never lived out loud, the cheerleader, the jumping up and down and rah-rah-rah-ing Currie. She is one of those “inner inhabitants” who has a voice but NOT really a face, or a body I have walked round in.

And while all that I have said is true, and I BElieve in it completely, there is also a HUGE part of me who feels like a mistake, an error, and truly an aberration. I’ve had a run of “events” the past 6 or 7 years of trying to “fit in” and “find my place” in larger groupings. [even in a small one, but I won’t go there.]

This has me wondering lately, What is it that BElonging and BEing a part of this, that, or the other group/s holds that I want/ed so much?!

And frankly, I canNOT tell you, or even myself…

Oh well…

I love you, Currie