Saturday, November 10, 2012

Currie's Gratitude 10 November 2012

Even if you REALLY don’t BElieve it
It’s up to YOU [ME]
Each one of us
And knowing this can give us wings.

I’ve NOT been much of a Believer in myself. Perhaps at times I was cocky, arrogant, even full of myself, yet I’ve never really BElieved that things were in my hands, heart, and mind. I allowed Life to happen to me. I spent my Life and days reacting.

The thing I know Now is that BEfore I knew it was up to me I was happy to play the victim, the one to whom things happened, willy-nilly.

I am grateful that I could Let Go of that way of BEing and seeing My Life.

I am grateful for all the wrongheadedness and spinning around thinkering. I am grateful I could keep myself open to a new discovery.

Knowing this, Now, makes my Life richer. I mightn’t BE rich, yet I live extravagantly. Bodaciously!! Simply BEcause I choose to. BEcause I CAN!!!

I should probably add that this awareness wrapped up inside realisation wasn’t the biggest package under the tree. Nor was it wrapped all fancy-shmancy with ribbons and bows. It was just a quiet little box. With a quietish bit of a glow. That much I CAN say. Otherwise, a very simple little box…

I love you, Currie

1 comment:

Ginger Davis Allman (The Blue Bottle Tree) said...

It was a quiet little box, wasn't it? And being a talkative, sharing sort of person (who still has the habit of seeking approval and agreement externally), I try to tell other people about the box. And they don't have a clue what I'm talking about. My 17yo sort of gets it, at least intellectually. But still, most people just look around suspiciously, eyeing the world with caution. And I guess to be honest, so do I to an extent. Because although I have received the quiet little box and I know what's in it and I understand it, there's a world of difference between understanding and practice. I still don't create my life as much as I want to. The tail wags the dog. But at least, thanks to the box, I know that's my own problem and mine to solve. I'm so glad to have found your gratitudes, Currie. They're wonderful.