Wednesday, September 26, 2012

Currie's Gratitude 26 September 2012

Ó 2012 Currie Silver
Even if I imagine it easy to DO
Stepping up or stepping forward
When necessary
Still makes me doubt myself
Wonder if I have what it takes
Want to shrink back
Play small…

There have been times in my Life when others viewed me as courageous and some of them even said so. Multiple times. So I couldn’t just pass it off as fluff.

The thing is, when those times were happening, unfolding, BEing what I was DOing, I was filled and overflowing with self-doubt. I was terrified. I was hanging on by the merest thread. Seconds from falling flat on my face.

And then, when I look back from a decent distance, when the Whole Experience is BEhind me, I see myself and it is clear that what I did surely could have been considered courageous.


I think it’s far more fulfilling, as a person stumbling about in this World, to decide ahead of time to BE braver than I think is brave enough. To embrace the terror of whatever I’m going to DO, and Just DO It as it unfolds.

It’s very tempting to think, “I coulda, woulda, shoulda…” To play small and keep my light low. To NOT BE a bother. To hold back. To let things BE… without Me.

I love you, Currie

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