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| Ó 2012 Currie Silver |
Even if I imagine it easy to DO
Stepping up or stepping forward
When necessary
Still makes me doubt myself
Wonder if I have what it takes
Want to shrink back
Play small…
There have been times in my Life when others viewed me as
courageous and some of them even said so. Multiple times. So I couldn’t just
pass it off as fluff.
The thing is, when those times were happening, unfolding,
BEing what I was DOing, I was filled and overflowing with self-doubt. I was
terrified. I was hanging on by the merest thread. Seconds from falling flat on
my face.
And then, when I look back from a decent distance, when the
Whole Experience is BEhind me, I see myself and it is clear that what I did
surely could have been considered courageous.
BUT…
I think it’s far more fulfilling, as a person stumbling
about in this World, to decide ahead of time to BE braver than I think is brave
enough. To embrace the terror of whatever I’m going to DO, and Just DO It as it
unfolds.
It’s very tempting to think, “I coulda, woulda, shoulda…” To
play small and keep my light low. To NOT BE a bother. To hold back. To let
things BE… without Me.
I love you, Currie
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