The really important kind of freedom involves attention, and awareness, and discipline, and effort, and being able truly to care about other people and to sacrifice for them, over and over, in myriad petty little unsexy ways, every day. [David Foster Wallace, This Is Water]
Recuperating brings unusual self-awareness, highlighting the distance BEtween what I’d thought was/is How I AM and Where I AM Now. It brings confusion and misunderstanding and too much sensitivity, like walking barefoot over glass.
Mostly, though, it feels empty and less. Like NOT BEing Enough. And BEing a disappointment. Those “myriad petty little unsexy ways” DO make Life much nicer, if I can BE so bold to say…
The aim of life is to live, and to live means to be aware, joyously, drunkenly, serenely, divinely aware. [Henry Miller]
I agree, the aim of Life is to live, yet living is more than just BEing Aware. It is BEing open and willing, too. It is knowing that all Life comes to pass. It is holding on while always Letting Go.
Every act of conscious learning requires the willingness to suffer an injury to one's self-esteem. That is why young children, before they are aware of their own self-importance, learn so easily. [Thomas Szasz]
What a deLIGHTfull concept for riding these choppy water waves.
I love you, Currie