Change is like that: you are no longer where you were; you are not yet where you will get; you are nowhere exactly. [Lionel Shriver, Checker and the Derailleurs]
It is a precarious ledge I find myself on these past weeks. Getting narrower and then suddenly widening, and I feel like I am Right Here and it is good, “well with my soul” as Jay so often writes…
I notice that it isn’t easy for some people to see me Here, or mayBE to accept it. I can fall into old habits in a blink, but fighting someone has NEVER worked for me…
When I fully enter time’s swift current, enter into the current moment with the weight of all my attention, I slow the torrent with the weight of me all here. [Ann Voskamp, One Thousand Gifts: A Dare to Live Fully Right Where You Are]
I’ve been feeling like this. Things feel slowed down a LOT and like frame-by-frame instead of flowing one into the other, a “moving” picture. I lost my patience yesterday. I discovered an end in myself and it came up so suddenly, without giving me any time at all to make it BEhave.
Here is an unfenced existance [Philip Larkin]
What an apt description. Here is a field, wide open and free.
I love you, Currie