Monday, May 6, 2013

Currie's Gratitude 6 May 2013




I am sure I had something in mind with this prompt. What I love is having no clue. Which makes writing about it all the more refreshing and curious.

I DO know that much of my Life I have been concerned with or bothered about what I was in and where/when I was out.

My family was the first of these overbearing situations.

And somehow I adapted and carried on, despite BEing quite outside of this group of first just 4 of us and eventually 10, NOT counting grandparents, aunts, uncles, or cousins…

I survived BEing in that conglomerate thanks in large part to camp. Someplace I did feel a part of, in, yet in a very different sense than BEing in my family.

There were years I lived only for those 7+ weeks, savouring in BEtween the treasures they were for the other 10 months of the year.

My family of choice, when I was married and when Timmy was very small, was something I was still too young to really appreciate BEing integral to. Which I call the WHY I Broke It Apart.

In the past 30 years there has been a series of ins and outs, yet only Now DO I see them clearly.

BEcause Now I am definitely in while also very much out

I love you, Currie

2 comments:

Barbara Schwartz said...

Sounds like you've followed an interesting life path. I often start a blog with a quote or a picture and let it take me where it will. Since Creativeeveryday isn't working so well today, decided to take the time to read everyone who posted. I'm not far down the list but am glad I read your post for the day. You can find me at morningprayerblog.blogspot.com.

Rita said...

I always preferred being on the outside, I guess. Takes the pressure off and gives one a LOT of freedom to find yourself when you aren't trying to fit in. I have enough trouble just trying to live up to my own expectations--let alone anyone else's--LOL! ;)