Wednesday, May 22, 2013

Currie's Gratitude 22 May 2013




This is one of my BIGGEST hurdles in Life. 

I am a chronic explainer. 

I canNOT seem to help myself. 

I prattle on and rarely notice that I am DOing it until…

I did learn quite a lot about this about a dozen or so years ago while teaching a combined 1st, 2nd, and 3rd grade class. 

I discovered that answering a question was far simpler and much less wordy than I’d automatically launch into.

Several children were more than satisfied with a simple and straightforward answer. 

Others would hear my response and ask for clarification or expansion. 

Doling these replies out in bits and pieces allowed me to understand what years of criticism for talking too much had failed to DO.

More present tense, I find myself wondering and wandering into my own thoughtsandfeelings about My Life Up Until Now. 

I envision myself explaining myself to those who had been yet no longer are part of my Life on any sort of continuous basis. 

I have startling insights and ah-HAH moments which I feel an urgency to share.

Most of the time Now I catch myself at this and stop it. 

I consider who really needs to know this and I always realise that it is ME. 

No one else is really listening anymore…

I mean, really

I love you, Currie

2 comments:

Cynthia Powell said...

I know the feeling. The words don't matter when they fall on deaf ears.

Rita said...

When I get that uncontrollable urge to share (live alone) I journal and then can sort things out or release my chattiness on paper. Write letters, too, sometimes.