Currie's Gratitude 29 March 2013

I am learning about things I only ever knew from the outside. I am discovering how it feels to BE inside and immersed in a circumstance that does NOT respond to “mind over matter” instructions.

I am grateful to BE open to learning this. To BE non-resistant and unashamed.

How sad that we shame ourselves for our body’s shortcomings and challenges. How much sadder still that we blame others for their circumstances.

This might NOT sound grateful, on first reading, though you can trust me, right here, at first writing, it comes from a deep bed of Gratitude.

So often this past week+ I have heard It could have been worse, and I have thought it a time or mayBE a bazillion myself. And it is true. It could indeed have been a wholly different kettle of fish if this and NOT that or that but NOT this.

Ultimately it is what it is and shall BE what it shall BE. I wish I could have that split second back, stopping the whole thing BEfore it BEgan.

But I am NOT in charge of Time or Events, only of my response to them. This has been a guiding principle to me all this week and a bit.

I might have preferred this NOT have happened.

But it did…

I love you, Currie