I don’t precisely mean the accurate and correct true. In fact, I think what I mean is
the true in “to thine own self BE
true.” I’m thinking it is darned near impossible NOT to BE.
At the same time, though, it’s easy to fool myself. To buy
what I am selling. To bend myself to my own will. Even to bully myself.
When I am BEing true I see past that, AND, I include that, if that makes any sort of sense to
anyone living outside of my head.
BEing true is staying where my feet are. It is facing Life
and NOT running from it. NOT EVEN considering running from it might even BE
nearer the true true.
BEing true is a lot more about having faith than it is about
embellishing and DOing fancy pants bending of facts and circumstances.
It has taken me a long while to get real with myself about
my circumstances. To see myself clearly enough to discern that which IS and IS NOT true. For me. About me. Those kind of trues.
BEing true is NOT easy. It invites distraction and makes
avoidance look almost healthy. It is also humbling, which, while always a “good”
thing, I find also really uncomfortable, like the shock of ice-cold water over my
head.
I love you, Currie
1 comment:
I think I know what you mean. Being starkly honest with yourself is a difficult thing to do. Takes practice. The more honestly you look, the more you are able to see. :)
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