Tuesday, July 2, 2013

Currie's Gratitude 2 July 2013

I don’t precisely mean the accurate and correct true. In fact, I think what I mean is the true in “to thine own self BE true.” I’m thinking it is darned near impossible NOT to BE.

At the same time, though, it’s easy to fool myself. To buy what I am selling. To bend myself to my own will. Even to bully myself.

When I am BEing true I see past that, AND, I include that, if that makes any sort of sense to anyone living outside of my head.

BEing true is staying where my feet are. It is facing Life and NOT running from it. NOT EVEN considering running from it might even BE nearer the true true.

BEing true is a lot more about having faith than it is about embellishing and DOing fancy pants bending of facts and circumstances.

It has taken me a long while to get real with myself about my circumstances. To see myself clearly enough to discern that which IS and IS NOT true. For me. About me. Those kind of trues.

BEing true is NOT easy. It invites distraction and makes avoidance look almost healthy. It is also humbling, which, while always a “good” thing, I find also really uncomfortable, like the shock of ice-cold water over my head. 

I love you, Currie

1 comment:

Rita said...

I think I know what you mean. Being starkly honest with yourself is a difficult thing to do. Takes practice. The more honestly you look, the more you are able to see. :)