Fortunately,
disappointments have little to do with circumstance and everything to do with
perspective. Everything. [www.tut.com]
Gracie and I had the best walk this morning. It’s the first
time that I’ve felt my body moving and it did NOT feel weird, foreign, NOT
mine.
Then I got irritated, annoyed, bothered by buzzing
mosquito-thoughts.
I hate this feeling sick and weak and tired and crankypants.
I hate that I have sharp edges and sometimes don’t care about the things and
the people I care about. I hate that I worry and try to work things out. [aka
control outcomes]
I hate the word HATE. And yet here I have used it 5 times.
But that is what is true for me Right This Minute.
It is all about perspective. And
when the chemo is DOing its thing and bringing on its myriad circumstances, I am
NOT the one in control. AND, I am NOT the one who is pretty awful either. But
it is hard to remember that all the times I need to remember that.
And Round 3 BEgins tomorrow… So: I will enJOY this good walk
feeling; and this feeling like myself again, where things taste, [and even
taste delicious]; and people just make me smile and feel glad we are sharing
this Time and Space together.
I love you, Currie
3 comments:
You know what I LOVE about NOT receiving Currie's Gratitude in my email inbox every morning? That I am receiving Currie's LOVE each morning instead. Well - Gratitude, LOVE - it's all the same really and I LOVE receiving it. I hope you feel my LOVE as well...t
So glad you had a good walk!!! Today I will be cleaning my art desk and work area .... I may get lost... so don't panic if you don't hear from me later today :)
Sending LOVE ...the Greatest of all Powers♥♥♥♥♥
How long are you on this roller coaster ride?
Glad you are feeling better and out walking with Gracie! Love and hugs! :)
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