Friday, December 6, 2013

Currie's Gratitude 6 December 2013

Dance for yourself. If someone understands, good. If not, no matter. Go right on doing what interests you, and do it until it stops interesting you.   [Louis Horst]

I have been thinking that much of what I DO Now I DO for myself. I don’t mean that I am just all about ME ME ME, though perhaps that does fit, I mean that I DO what I DO BEcause I CAN. BEcause it gives me pleasure, JOY, and a reason to BE.

I used to DO for others’ approval and acceptance. And I was never really able to get that right. Or hold onto it for more than a few brief moments. I think of this every morning during my writing practise. No one else ever reads that. Even I don’t reread it. But it has BEcome essential and necessary. To me.

Kids: they dance before they learn there is anything that isn't music. [William Edgar Stafford]

I am utterly baffled by when I learned to BE so self-conscious. When I ate heaping spoons full of nonsense that demanded I have an explanation for why I DO what I DO. Even just all on my own sometimes I feel compelled to explain myself to me.

I want to BE BEcause Life’s been given me. No further explanations required.

I love you, Currie

1 comment:

Rita said...

We're all taught when we are kids what is allowed and what isn't. But that is different from culture to culture and family to family. When we finally realize we were only given the one filtered version of how to live and there are so many all over the world--or even all over your neighborhood or town--quite an eyeopener. Loving and nurturing yourself first--I was taught that was bad and selfish, but how else can you truly love and nurture anyone else if you don't know how to be that for yourself? Life is one fascinating, bumpy, illuminating road! :)