When it's new and
important, you have to rest in between times. And anyway, even when I like a
person there is a weariness that comes. I can be with someone and everything is
fine and then all of a sudden it can wash over me like a sickness, that I need the
quiet of my own self. I need to unload my head and look at what I've got in
there so far. See it. Think what it means. I always need to come back to being
alone for a while. [Elizabeth Berg, Joy School]
I’ve always been like this but it’s only the past few years that
I’ve been aware of how essential it is for me to BE alone, for awhile, and
often for a long while.
Alone is where I DO my best marinating. I can toss and turn
and try ideas out. I can make a list of what might happen and how I might
handle it.
The relationships I have Today that are working work BEcause
of my insistence on Time Alone. Solitude. Quiet. NO incoming anything.
This is also why past relationships, and even some long-term
ones that continue Today have been so troubled and troubling. I simply did NOT
recognise my need for Time to BE just by myself. Quietly.
I love you, Currie
2 comments:
I get worn out and drained by people. Used to take longer--LOL! I have always needed my alone time to fuel my soul. Some people are so uncomfortable with alone time that they will do anything not to be alone. I think we are lucky to enjoy it. Without it, eventually I'd feel like I was skimming along on the surface of my days. :)
I've always been that way too. Like creativity it's a innate part of my being.. most of my family recognizes this. My Husband still struggles with understanding it even after 20 years. Maybe by the time we are 90 he will understand :)
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