Tuesday, December 9, 2014

Currie's Gratitude 9 December 2014

When it's new and important, you have to rest in between times. And anyway, even when I like a person there is a weariness that comes. I can be with someone and everything is fine and then all of a sudden it can wash over me like a sickness, that I need the quiet of my own self. I need to unload my head and look at what I've got in there so far. See it. Think what it means. I always need to come back to being alone for a while.   [Elizabeth Berg, Joy School]

I’ve always been like this but it’s only the past few years that I’ve been aware of how essential it is for me to BE alone, for awhile, and often for a long while.

Alone is where I DO my best marinating. I can toss and turn and try ideas out. I can make a list of what might happen and how I might handle it.

The relationships I have Today that are working work BEcause of my insistence on Time Alone. Solitude. Quiet. NO incoming anything.

This is also why past relationships, and even some long-term ones that continue Today have been so troubled and troubling. I simply did NOT recognise my need for Time to BE just by myself. Quietly.

I love you, Currie


Rita said...

I get worn out and drained by people. Used to take longer--LOL! I have always needed my alone time to fuel my soul. Some people are so uncomfortable with alone time that they will do anything not to be alone. I think we are lucky to enjoy it. Without it, eventually I'd feel like I was skimming along on the surface of my days. :)

Carol said...

I've always been that way too. Like creativity it's a innate part of my being.. most of my family recognizes this. My Husband still struggles with understanding it even after 20 years. Maybe by the time we are 90 he will understand :)