People like to say love is unconditional, but it's
not, and even if it was unconditional, it's still never free. There's always an
expectation attached. They always want something in return. Like they want you
to be happy or whatever and that makes you automatically responsible for their
happiness because they won't be happy unless you are ... I just don't want that
responsibility. [Katja
Millay, The Sea of
Tranquility]
I have always been intrigued by unconditional love. It
sounds so nice. But it also sounds like one of those here-is-what’s-different-about-me
things. I’ve never found love to BE free of some sort of condition and
expectation. And if I forget to squint just so at that finding, no matter what,
I am dubious and on my guard.
I don’t say this with negative intent, but I know I have
certain expectations of Gracie, as she does me, and anyone who knows the two of
us would point to an “unconditional love” BEtween us.
Mostly I think it is the responsible thing to clarify my
limitations, my boundaries, and my expectations. NOT necessarily to anyone
else, but certainly within myself. When I don’t, or at least when I have NOT done
so, those are the places where I can point to things BEing “fubar.”
Just me thinking out loud.
I love you, Currie
3 comments:
Loving the colors, and your sketch is spot on!
Your Art is amazing today and your words have started an internal debate in my head that is going to last for days I can tell :) Something to fill my time on these cold winter days ♥ Sending you Love and all the Healing Thoughts and Powers I can Drum up...and I got a new drum to do it with too :)
my son taught me about unconditional love when he was in the throes of a heroine/alcohol addiction. I finally decided that I was going to love him not because I agreed with what he was doing but because it made me feel whole. I told him so. He has been clean and sober for 6 + years and always always always my best life teacher. Even today. We have the best conversations. I'm not sure I've ever felt it anywhere else as purely and wholle as I have felt it for him.
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