Lots of things can be fixed. Things can be fixed. But many times, relationships between people cannot be fixed, because they should not be fixed. You're aboard a ship setting sail, and the other person has joined the inland circus, or is boarding a different ship, and you just can't be with each other anymore. Because you shouldn't be. [C. JoyBell C.]
Lately it feels to me like I am in a growth spurt. Strange, but I feel it so I am going to call it by a name I know. I think I can “fix” things that have been broken or even just set aside, but when I come to the task I haven’t the tools or the first clue HOW to “fix” whatever it is.
Today is my father’s 89th birthday. I wish, more than anything, sometimes, that I could just hear his voice, have him “in my corner,” and know he is with me. But he and I aren’t big fans of the telephone, and a visit isn’t in the cards, so I will likely have to settle for phoning him and leaving my good wishes in a voicemail.
The idea that mayBE our relationship is just fine as it is, [and as it is NOT] well, I am finding some peace in that.
I love you, Currie