Here is one way to understand the
relationships in a circle of trust: they combine unconditional love, or regard,
with hopeful expectancy, creating a space that both safeguards and encourages
the inner journey. In such a space, we are freed to hear our own truth, touch what
brings us joy, become self-critical about our faults, and take risky steps
toward change—knowing that we will be accepted no matter what the outcome. [Parker
Palmer, A Hidden Wholeness]
I might BE in the hardest part of this Journey. Or mayBE I
am just cranky and tired and feeling out of sorts.
I feel nothing but fear at taking steps, risky ones and
sensible ones alike. I don’t know where any “circle of trust” exists in my Real
World. There are circles all right, but they don’t strike me as places to find
either safety or encouragement.
I was utterly stunned to read about Quaker Clearness
Committees yesterday. I came to see that all that I want is to know that I
am safe to try BEcause with safety I could stop berating and shaming myself for
all that I’ve fallen short on.
My writing has fallen off. I am unsure of myself. I am
scared. I feel I’ve BEcome a bother and nuisance. Enough already.
Love?! No matter what?!
I love you, Currie
3 comments:
Currie,
Your self-accounting and willingness to stand alone and vulnerable are admirable, even enviable.
Thank you.
Drew
If they are honest, everyone has periods of self-doubt and weakness. You are strong enough to admit it. And you have damn good reason to feel worn out and vulnerable, woman. Hang in there. *love and hugs*
Insecurities are not a sign of weakness ...facing the unknown and even the known can be a frightening experience. Recognition is a strength to be admired . It's ok to be scared and unsure... but never consider yourself a bother or a nuisance.... that's just plain "HOGWASH!"
Love ya and sending massive HUGS .
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