Sometimes, when you
don’t know the answer to a question that keeps playing over and over again in
your mind, it’s because you’re messing with the wrong question. [www.tut.com Perpetual Calendar 15 October]
Sometimes I know just what this means… and I’ve found that I
tend to DO this characteristically, and canNOT see any reason for either the
shame this has supposedly brought on me, or the way I have invaded Life with my
intensity to “BE Right” no matter what “prisoners” were taken in the process.
And I just don’t want to explain, elaborate, or even talk
about things, like my health decisions and related sorts of matters, with anyone
whose intention is to correct, persuade, or “re-educate” me.
OR… with anyone who wants to BE my intimate. An odd word, perhaps, but it is exactly what I am talking
about.
I embrace my Solitude and I finally love myself. Enough.
I am deeply grateful to those friends and family who take
the time to think of me, ask about me, pray for me, and, in a variety of ways,
include me in their lives. I am continually amazed by the medical people I have
encountered. In ways, they are my
“intimates” of this Time in my LIfe.
And this is, quite clearly, just my Life unfolding.
I love you, Currie
3 comments:
Currie,
Your artwork today is lovely I like the simplicity — clean, clear, certain (mirroring your sentiment today, too).
I agree with what Drew said. Love today's art and sending you much LOVE and STRENGTH.
I have found there are times when people commiserating or giving advice without any personal even vaguely related knowledge is somehow annoying and even upsetting. Don't tell me you know how I feel or what I should do if you haven't been told your baby is dying, if you haven't been beaten and raped, if you haven't ever lost everything or lived on the streets, if you haven't been in a seriously unhealthy relationship, if you have never lived in constant pain...etc, etc. I know there are always people who have it worse, but it's the ones who have no clue what you are living through and have it better that can cause you to shut your ears and avoid them--LOL! That's just natural, I guess. They mean well and wish they could help...but sometimes nobody can...and it helps to talk to someone who has at least been in the trenches. ;) Don't feel guilty about it. Like I said--you're a strong woman. :):)
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