The brick walls are there for a reason. The brick
walls are not there to keep us out. The brick walls are there to give us a
chance to show how badly we want something. Because the brick walls are there
to stop the people who don’t want it badly enough. They’re there to stop the
other people. [Randy
Pausch, The Last
Lecture]
I recall first reading this, how it struck me as something
that had all along been hiding in plain sight. I had an entirely different
interpretation of what I called the “brick walls,” but it wasn’t long until I came
to see things in a new way.
Chemo has been a brick wall for me. I’ve gone through it,
sometimes, thinking I should. With an attitude of I’ve got to DO whatever I CAN
DO. Somehow having cancer almost demands one have a good fighting heart.
And yet, Right Now, the first moments of a day when I feel
almost human after 3+ days lost in the haze of pain and nausea, I wonder who
came up with this equation. The very LAST thing I have felt is my heart up for
the fight.
I’m a little confused about my position on brick walls Right
Now. But I am keeping my heart and mind open.
I love you, Currie
2 comments:
Sending you PEACE & STRENGTH all wrapped up in LOVE ♥
I don't think most people would ever pick out the battles they'll have to fight or the hurdles they'll have to jump during the course of their lifetime. But when those challenges present themselves...you do what you have to do. That's why I have never understood people who want to know the future--LOL! Us humans tend to see the looming pain, heartbreak, and fear first...but miss the inner growth over the long term, you know? Looking back--it has been the most difficult experiences that lifted my soul to highest over time. Hard to put into words. Brick walls always have gates...or places where one can climb over...or places that have crumbled to the ground. ;)
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