… stop a moment, cease your work, look around
you. [Leo Tolstoy]
This is a rather different experience with chemo than last
time, but mayBE I am just adapting and making room for cancer in my “Previously-Programmed”
Plan BE.
I am writing all the time in my head and my heart, but I am limiting
my daily writing to this email/post.
And sometimes I read other emails and respond with way more
than too many words, sometimes losing my place in the split second I was just
thinking or knowing it.
This is my brain Right Now. I’m making room for its
challenges. I’ve known something was NOT right with my ability to “track” Life
as it’s unfolding. It’s MORE largely THAT that made letting go of BEing a
driver so simply “right-for-me Right Now.” And still…
Somehow I feel like there is this conversation I have been
having with “you all here.” I’ve lost my way and found a new one many times
over these years simply by having “you all here/there” to listen.
We honor the spirit in
other people when we listen to them. [unknown]
I have been having some healing conversations with myself,
and there is a LOT of forgiveness seeping out of me. For myself, largely, which
is good, but a bit perfuzzling.
I love you, Currie
3 comments:
Forgiving ourselves for our thoughts , actions and reactions is one the hardest emotional growths to achieve. We are most critical of ourselves so unnecessarily. It's a tough habit to over come. Sending you love and warm fuzzy hugs as you travel this journey.
You are doing great. Forgiveness is top of the list good. When you are fuzzy--don't worry about it. Do what you feel comfortable with...even if that is doing nothing at all. ;)
You are doing great. Forgiveness is top of the list good. When you are fuzzy--don't worry about it. Do what you feel comfortable with...even if that is doing nothing at all. ;)
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