Thursday, January 8, 2015

Currie's Gratitude 8 January 2015

Those first few weeks are an unearthly season. From the outside you remain so ordinary, no one can tell from looking that you have experienced an earthquake of the soul. You've been torn asunder, invested with an ancient, incomprehensible magic. It's the one thing that we never quite get over: that we contain our own future.   [Barbara Kingsolver, Animal Dreams]

NOT sure I understand this. I’m only certain that it makes sense to me.

On the outside, I look good. Healthy. Strong. Younger than my 61 years. I manage and I live day in and day out.

But cancer has been “an earthquake of the soul.” It has made everything buckle, shimmy, and some of it even fall, shattering into too many pieces to put it back together.

Even if chemo has messed up my eyesight, it has reavealed in me a sort of acceptance unlike anything I experienced up until Now. I understand something deep, more important, something that doesn’t require my eyes to SEE it, only my soul to embrace it.

If you ask me, when something extraordinary shows up in your life in the middle of the night, you give it a name and make it the best home you can.   [Barbara Kingsolver, High Tide in Tucson: Essays from Now or Never]

I agree completely.

I love you, Currie


Rita said...

Epiphany moments of new perspective are earthquakes of the soul for me. Also those events where your life is turned upside down in a matter of seconds and you are suddenly on a new path you hadn't expected...earthquakes of the soul. Some are joyous and some are unbearable painful...but they all test you and keep you moving along your own winding pathway.

I didn't know your eyes were effected. Sorry to hear that.

Carol said...

"Earthquakes of the Soul" I like that. It seems that my life has landed on a major fault line these last few years with a couple of major earthquakes and several "After Shocks" that keep me off center and struggling for balance. About the time I think I have a handle on it all it seems to fall apart. However I do find myself handling it all with more stride as time goes on .
Sending you Strength-Peace & LOVE!