Tuesday, January 27, 2015

27 January 2015

This is the problem with dealing with someone who is actually a good listener. They don’t jump in on your sentences, saving you from actually finishing them, or talk over you, allowing what you do manage to get out to be lost or altered in transit. Instead, they wait, so you have to keep going.   [Sarah Dessen, Just Listen]

So much for predictions of little hiccups is all…

I’m really sick and I’ve been really sick going on 6 days Now. It’s a fog. Painful. And a little insulting.

Yesterday, talking with my palliative care nurse, I started to get a “bigger picture” view when I realised that all I want Now is to BE able to see Mum. Even more than the pain, NOT BEing able to see her has done me in.

I didn’t understand that what was underneath all this is my fear of BEing unable to DO the “normal” things. So, there you are. A Very Normal Thing I CanNOT DO Right Now.

Instead I will BE grateful for talking it through with my nurse, with my brother, a little, and God.

The most basic of all human needs is the need to understand and be understood. The best way to understand people is to listen to them.   [Ralph G. Nichols]

Absotively and Posolutely.

I love you, Currie


Carol said...

It saddens me to hear that you are still so ill. Will continue to pray for you to regain your strength and balance in life so you can go back to being with your MUM. Sending LOVE & STRENGTH in abundance.

Rita said...

I hope you are over the worst of this by now. I usually get posts a day later.
It's hard to lose control and not be able to do what we want when we want...especially when we want to be doing something with or for someone else. Even if no one else can do anything to fix or change the situation...it is nice to have someone hear you. *hugs*