Wednesday, January 7, 2015

Currie's Gratitude 7 January 2015

Just remember that sometimes, the way you think about a person isn’t the way they actually are… People are different when you can smell them and see them up close…   [John Green, Paper Towns]

I don’t know how many people actually read what I write here. And I don’t particulary care. This is a new perspective. Somehow I think I have lost my capacity for caring about things that no longer mean anything to me.

I never had a script for Currie with cancer, much less Currie & Mum both having cancer. Currie as caregiver I could envision, though that was much fuzzier and less likely, given Mum’s strong independence.

I haven’t got to know many of my readers, yet the ones I have met, even by email, blow me away daily. I wonder, is this all things coming to place?! Is it time for me to no longer forget I am NOT IN CONTROL of Life and enJOY the experience of Life, whatever it might BE DOing or NOT BE DOing.

There is only one thing in this world shittier than biting it from cancer when you're sixteen, and that's having a kid who bites it from cancer.   [John Green, The Fault in Our Stars]

This is something I think I finally understand about Mum and me…

I love you, Currie


Rita said...

Wow! True! True! Perspectives change. Reality is different than what we might have imagined. Funny that we can't help but imagine, regardless of the fact we are usually wrong--LOL!

Carol said...

Everything and everyone is constantly changing so I am constantly changing my perspective on everything. 2015 has started out with major challenges for me already and it's only the 8th day of the new year. Not what I was expecting at all but I'll shuffle and adjust and plow on through the year.