The trick was forgetting about what she had lost ...and learning to go on with what she had left. [Lisa Kleypas, Love in the Afternoon]
Lots of ways to look at this for me. I am in this wild wide open space where I have been left in charge. That’s one that usually makes me smile BEcause I think, wasn’t it just last week when they let me bring Timmy home from the hospital?!
I think I know what to say about it, but then the words dodge and duck and dive away. Listening. BEing Present. This is all I feel capable of Right Now.
“There is nothing worse, is there," she said, "than a past that has never been fully dealt with. One can convince oneself, that it is all safely in the past and forgotten about, but the very fact that we can tell ourselves that it is forgotten proves that it is not.” [Mary Balogh, Simply Magic]
I’ve had memories from times in my Life I am NOT sure WERE my Life. I’m experiencing something I’ve only ever imagined, and while I canNOT say for sure if it’s pretend, imagination gone wild absolutely fits.
BEing Present I recognise that NOTHING is ever really and truly “lost” BEcause I am making space for it in me.
I love you, Currie