Sunday, February 1, 2015

1 February 2015

The trick was forgetting about what she had lost ...and learning to go on with what she had left.   [Lisa Kleypas, Love in the Afternoon]

Lots of ways to look at this for me. I am in this wild wide open space where I have been left in charge. That’s one that usually makes me smile BEcause I think, wasn’t it just last week when they let me bring Timmy home from the hospital?!

I think I know what to say about it, but then the words dodge and duck and dive away. Listening. BEing Present. This is all I feel capable of Right Now.

“There is nothing worse, is there," she said, "than a past that has never been fully dealt with. One can convince oneself, that it is all safely in the past and forgotten about, but the very fact that we can tell ourselves that it is forgotten proves that it is not.”  [Mary Balogh, Simply Magic]

I’ve had memories from times in my Life I am NOT sure WERE my Life. I’m experiencing something I’ve only ever imagined, and while I canNOT say for sure if it’s pretend, imagination gone wild absolutely fits.

BEing Present I recognise that NOTHING is ever really and truly “lost” BEcause I am making space for it in me.

I love you, Currie


Rita said...

Sometimes when I look back it seems like I have lived all these different lives. There are things I am ashamed of--that still make me laugh or shake my head at my foolishness--or that I am proud of like it was someone. Our lives may be so short in the bigger picture but, if we are lucky enough, we might be able to look back over decades and it will feel like such a long time. Sometimes I wonder--how could I have thought this or that was so important? Or--did I really think that back then? And yet some memories are so bright and clear that you almost believe you are able to relive them. We humans are kind of magical. ;)

Carol said...

I couldn't begin to say anything any better than what Rita has said. Life is lived best if we enjoy the day we have to the fullest and accept that tomorrow is only a possibility that can be miraculous.