Wednesday, February 18, 2015

18 February 2015

It’s odd, isn’t it? People die every day and the world goes on like nothing happened. But when it’s a person you love, you think everyone should stop and take notice. That they ought to cry and light candles and tell you that you’re not alone.   [Kristina McMorris, Letters From Home]

I’ve NOT written in awhile. Yet it seems like no time has passed at all. I’ve sometimes liked that aspect of Life. MayBE I like it even Now, but certainty is a luxury I canNOT afford.

I’m only Now realising how large my mum’s Life really was, how amazing and remarkable a person she was, and how lucky I was to have her, even when she took up all the air in the room, leaving me to scuttle away into a corner, out of sight, BEyond reach.

I’m still reeling and yet amazingly calm and really rather sensible. I am well aware of the state of my own health, making every effort I can to maximise or simply keep it on an even keel.

Writing this may BE overdue. Yet mayBE it’s still too soon. It’s awkward telling people that Mum passed. It’s hard to BE inside the grief process of others, especially people I don’t know well.

I’ve tried to BE Prepared. But I’m falling short.

I love you, Currie


drew said...

Sounds to me that you're keeping on, feeling the loss and appreciating a life.

Write on.

Carol said...

So glad to see you with us again ♥ I've worried and prayed and should have written more often. Grief is real.It is Strong and it is ALIVE. It must be processed and lived through but we can not allow it to control and destroy us. Some people take longer to process and that's ok. I think of you daily and send prayers for the healing of your spirit and the Strength to live the life you have to the fullest. It is your life and I feel blessed to be in a small corner of it. Sending Love and Strength and a BIG OLE SQUEEZE the Breath out of YOU HUG!!!! ♥♥♥♥♥♥

Rita said...

You are never prepared. Even when you think you are and have forewarning. If you didn't care...if the person meant little in your life...then it would be easier. Feel what you feel. Let the loss wash over you in waves. Grief ties us together as human beings. *love and hugs*

Michelle V. Alkerton, mixed media artist said...

Oh Currie. I am so sorry to hear of your Mum's passing. I'm sure she loved and appreciated having you near in her final years.

Huge ((((HUGS)))).