Currie's Gratitude 14 July 2012

BE Bold. BE Strong. BE Tender. Ó2012 Currie Silver

BE Bold

Intrepid, audacious.

BE Strong

Sturdy, tough.

BE Tender

Kindhearted, gentle.

BE You.

When I wrote the 50 lines that I have been poeming the past 44 days, I was brainstorming and literally throwing thoughts out to myself. I never had a clue that I would take them and work with them, line-by-line, for the better part of two months’ Gratitude. Nor did I think of how else they have been working their way into making my art.

I suppose that is indicative of the WHY of this line. BEing Bold, Strong, and Tender are each and all together Very Important to me, to how I live, or intend to. Yesterday asked me to BE far more of all 3 than I thought I could BE. In fact, a returned phone call from my father compelled me to harmonise these 3. In the moment. In the face of a wave of feeling anything BUT…

I am grateful for how I struggle to BE. For BEing someone who dances on the head of a pin on pretty much a daily basis when it comes to Love and Relationship. I am especially grateful for my capacity for tenderness with myself, for BEing the one person I can count on. Always…

I love you, Currie

Currie's Gratitude 13 July 2012

 BE Kind. BE Gracious. BE Grateful. Ó2012 Currie Silver  

Why is it the simplest things

The things we all learned

[though, mayBE that is an assumption on my part?!]

Are the things so infrequently practised?!

BE Kind seems such a simple principle, premise, or even an intent. Why then are we in such a hurry and so oblivious to others that we simply are indifferent?! Kindness isn’t such a BIG deal. But it seems to have BEcome one thing too much for people, generally, to practise.

I realise this may BE me sharing TMI at the end of a week which has drained me, utterly, and on a morning after another waking at 2-ish A.M. and BEing wound too tight to fall back asleep until, well, I don’t know, but I know I then slept until well past 7.

BE Gracious. It’s another thing that doesn’t take much, yet it seems to take too much for so many that I wonder [oftener than I’d prefer anyone really know] where graciousness got lost in the shuffle.

BE Grateful. Well, this is NOT so lost in the weeds, I’ll admit, but that is often a part of one’s day or Life that is reserved for quiet and privacy. I get that, but I also think it can have its voice…

I love you, Currie

Currie's Gratitude 12 July 2012

Make BEautiful Mistakes Ó2012 Currie Silver

Yes! Make Mistakes!

Make BEautiful Mistakes!

Make rip-roaring flat-out ugly ones, too.

Make mistakes every day.

Like brushing your teeth

And getting enough sleep

Mistakes are good and so valuable.

Yesterday I made a whopper. I was NOT prepared. I was NOT really considering the circumstances. I couldn’t EVEN think on my feet to “fix” this mistake. Only when my feet were walking me all the way home through the much milder rain did I even SEE that I’d MADE a mistake.

You see, we are all very good at making excuses and pointing the finger at people or situations that “made us” make our mis-takes. It’s something that starts so early it just seems like we’ve always “been this way.”

When I was teaching I encouraged the kids to remove the erasers from their pencils. Instead of erasing their mistakes, I wanted them to circle them. BE able to “see” where they went “wrong” in whichever way they DID so. It has always made more sense this way, to me.

After all, are NOT our mis-takes that fertile ground from which our most amazing and spectaculicious things have grown, blossomed, and bloomed?!

I hold mistakes in high esteem. I see and trust that they are indeed MOST Beautimously-Beautifull!!!

No excuses required…

I love you, Currie

Currie's Gratitude 11 July 2012

Trust The Journey. Ó2012 Currie Silver        

Trust the Journey

Take Life as it flies by

Spread a blanket

Watch it all unfold

EnJOY this Time

Trust the Journey

I’ve NOT been really good at following my own counsel. I have, in fact, tried so many ways [and, I am still looking for MORE] to change the Past, reorganise the Present, and predict accurately the Future.

A long, looooooong way from trusting, eh?!

Somedays are like that, Mom. Thanks Timmy. I’d forgotten. Oh yes, the wisdom of babes speaks to me.

Trusting the Journey is living in Acceptance and having an openness that is BEyond just Willingness. It is a readiness to LET LIFE BE. Just BE Here. Right Now.

Long ago I was told to Let Go and I hadn’t the first clue HOW-TO DO that. [Envision releasing a balloon, I was advised.] How is it that I am still forgetting that holding onto what’s over, done, complete, and In The Past is a fool’s errand??!!

If I simply Trust, I’ve no investment in a way or an outcome. If I Trust, I Just Know that All is as it’s meant to BE. And clearly this SEEMS so much easier, kinder, and gentler. To ME. Why, then, so much resistance and negotiating??!! What has that EVER really accomplished??!!

I love you, Currie

Currie's Gratitude 10 July 2012

Evolve. Laugh. Wonder. Ó2012 Currie Silver

Evolve.

Allow Life to Happen.

Laugh.

Controlling Life is only illusion.

Wonder.

Reflect on what has been learned.

Repeat.

I am grateful for laughter. It is so helpful when I start in on myself, thinking I know HOW-TO change the Past. It even helps sleep to return, when my busy brain has woken me well on into the night, insisting I CAN change things if only I will look at them more closely.

I often forget that Life only goes forward. Actually, I am NOT entirely sure if I am moving toward it or it is moving on BEhind Me. I don’t suppose it matters. It’s just Life BEing Life and Me BEing Me.

There was LOTS of fun yesterday, with the campers, with making under the sea Worlds. I so enJOY teaching, but what I realised walking home was that I enJOY preparing even more. I did a LOT of prep for these two mornings. Far more than I am BEing paid for, but I am NOT complaining, just saying…

I wonder often if I will ever “arrive” and “grow up” and reach some sort of place of certainty, where I am sure of myself and things. I look at others who seem to happily inhabit someplace like that. I think…

I love you, Currie

Currie's Gratitude 9 July 2012

Carry On. Grow. Look Within. Ó2012 Currie Silver

Carry On. Just DO the best you can.

Grow. Lean into the feeling.

Trust this process. No Matter What.

Really. You know it works. YES!

Look Within. Find your heart’s song.

I am laughing at the way I have come up with these 3’s whilst at the same time feeling good deep inside. I was clearly in a different space when I made this list, which may BE why I am laughing Now as I notice feelings that are what I call “good.”

Sometimes Life just gives a pop quiz. All at once all that has been learned and uncovered and realised is brought to the brink. It’s TIME. Time to show what has shifted. What IS Right Now in shift.

I’ve never liked pop quizzes or sprints, but when I am on the other side of them I know far more than I imagined. Life, for me, has been pop quizzing and sprinting a LOT through the past several years. I sit here, Now, 5, 3, 1 year, even 7 months later and I am, in many ways utterly stunned, mostly ALL in DeLIGHTful ways. Mostly…

Okay… Many?!

I haven’t loved every minute, and I’ve often felt I was in the wrong class, but still I love my Life.

I love you, Currie

Currie's Gratitude 8 July 2012

Forgive. Pause. BEgin Again. Ó2012 Currie Silver

            

Forgive

Even if and especially when it seems most impossible

Pause

Always, ALWAYS, to give yourself the time to absorb and adjust

BEgin Again

BEcause Life is short and Love is ALWAYS possible.

I’ve been one of those people who thought holding onto grudges and resentments was the “better” and even the “more mature” way. It’s no wonder, really, when I stop and look at where and how I learned that “way” of BEing in the World.

Still…

One of the things I never learned HOW-TO-DO was take a Pause, a purposeful Pause, BEtween the forgiving and BEgin Again parts. I just shoved myself on and somehow this was the really NOT smart part. It’s a practise that has left me permanently stuck in a kind of reverse gear.

When TIME is taken to truly Pause, to let the thoughtsandfeelings find their feet, their legs, again, there is always space for that BEginning, and a sort of vortex that comes and moves things along and into place.

I suppose some of this comes of swallowing so too much at a time in my Life when I felt most alone, a time which I felt was “my fault” and my DOing. Yet mayBE I am just slower than I’d like to BE…

I love you, Currie